here i am ~ here i am!

okay, so here i am and i haven't blogged in so long, i am not even sure where to start.....yet i have so much to talk about, right?

right.........

it's ME......duh.

LOL

first of all, im so sorry i haven't been around my blog-a-licious blogger friends to comment on your blogs and keep
up with what has been going on with you.....or blogging myself for that matter. i can't say all to much about work stuff,
because you never know who is LURKING.....but work has played a very big part in my not having time to blog anymore.
(my job search has also taken any free time i get, which is next to none) i am back in my old department and there is NO breathing time what so ever - last week i stayed late a few nights just trying to catch things up - because there is no catching up in our department right now, and it still didn't help....go figure, and it is very overwhelming, to say the least.
and why don't i blog at home? well by the time i get off and pick up shnookie doodles - go play or walk or something with him before dinner and baths and bed - by the time i finally get him down, i am lucky to get a shower and just BREATHE before going to bed myself and getting up and starting all over.....argh.

and i miss it so much, writing, blogging, my little blog world and blog friends! (thank you to those of you who have not forgotten me and come back and check on me time and time again - i love your for it and it means soooo much!)

i have had so much going on, especially on the inside of me. :o)

we had a death in the family right before Easter, and that was very very hard...another loss to the evil Cancer who always seems to be hanging around the corners every where you look....kinda just sucks.

i actually had a "ladies night out" at the Melting Pot the last week of March (hince the feet photo below) i put on my hot shoes (that i used to wear 24.7, but haven't really worn since having the little man join me in my world in 2006.....sad i know....because they look so at "home" on and all.......)

[heheheheheheheheheeeee]

ladies night was iiiight....we had some good food, good talk and a few good tinis. i really need to do it more often.....but i am always saying that.

;o)

i have been on interview after interview after interview and just can't seem to "land" anything. finances are always tight, single mommyhood and all and NO help, really.....i am still struggling with my weight and insecurities from it among a few other
"silly" "outside" things.

i will be turning 36 on Saturday (May 3rd) and I am just not happy where i am "at" in life right now - i think i need a better plan. i pray by 40 i have got it mostly figured out and TOGETHER if not for MY sake for my SON'S sake...yanno. :o)

what IS my plan???

geeeeeesh, i am still working on THAT too....


i have been having some major dental issues and that has taken a lot out of me, i finally have an appointment Tuesday of next week.....i just haven't really been able to afford to go....but now that i am in an "emergency" sort of situation, i am just having to DO IT....and pray it all comes together.

i am doing A LOT of praying....which i do anyway, just seems like a lot MORE right now.... ;o)

i don't know if my blog is making much sense today, i am writing in between everything going on at work....so i am sure, as usual, it is a lot of rambling ISH.

as for updates on the little dude, he is fabulous and so entertaining, he gets me through the day every day (he and God of course) he is growing so fast - i swear every week he does something or says something new - he is a CHATTERBOX! (i love it!) he and i along with a handful of others did the March for Babies on April 19th here in RTP - a cause very close to my heart- I do it every year! A BIG THANK YOU TO HALLIE FOR MAKING A DONATION TOWARDS OUR TEAM FOR SUCH A GRRRRRREAT CAUSE! (((hug)))

shnookie doodles fav thing right now is playing with cars and balls. he has a ton of matchbox, hot wheels, little tikes etc cars that keep him very entertained. he is saying things like, "ball", "oooooh noooooo", "no no no no", "uh oh", "more" (and he does the sign for more when he is saying it), "gone-gone", "here mommy", "thnk ew" (for thank you), "plse" (for please), "buuuuuu" (for book), "eat eat", "beep beep", "baby", he loves to call me when i am not in site (or even when i am in site) "moooooommmmmeeeeeeeeeee" he thinks it is funny. he communicates very well with gestures and such. he still loves to dance and sing, "papa" is still his fav person along with "ammmmeeeee" (grammie). he now calls aunty anna-lisa "annnnnna or annnnnannannannaa" and uncle paul is "paw", he calls uncle pj "pujjjj" and we are still working on aunty melanie. he is just a doll, and still so loving and happy and sweet. he gives me kisses now with his lips puckered (all on his own) and i tell you - it just makes my heart MELT and in that moment makes the world a very HAPPY place....not a care in the world except for that moment and those kisses.

yep.....shnookie doodles rocks.

i will post some updated photos below :o)

so....my sis found out she is having a BOY! yay - we (i) are soooooo excited! shnookie doodles will be having a cousin close in age to grow up and play with - i am soooooooooooooo thrilled! she is due in September! (doodles birthday month)

my bro and his wife are still trying to sell their home in Illinois and move back here - i soooo can not wait!!!

other than all that.....all i am doing is WORKING non stop. i am really hoping to find a way to get back into my blogging and READING blogs.....i really am.....please don't forget me blog-a-licious bloggers, pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeze! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxx

and now without further adieu [drum roll] my wonderful little dude.......

SHNOOKIE DOODLES!

MY LITTLE EASTER DUDE ABOVE :O)

MY LITTLE 19 MONTH OLD DUDE BELOW PLAYING WITH HIS CARS AFTER HIS BATH BEING NORMALLY CUTE AND EXPRESSIVE!!! :O)

Peace n Love~~~~~Blessings to ALL!