just 4 more days

just 4 more days

omg! shnookums is going to be a YEAR OLD in 4 days!! i seriously can not believe it.

i spent the past two evenings going through his clothes for the 5th time. i have already given away two humongous bags of his clothes that i could actually part with and not get all emotional about, well kinda....sort of. (yes people, giving away his teeny tiny clothes makes me sad....lol)

as of last night i had 2 more great big bags of clothes that he can no longer wear - i swear i could have my own little baby boy's clothing store with what this little dude had stored away in my closets (yes closets is plural). not to mention all my little teeny tiny pairs of teeny tiny shoes....sigh. and this doesn't even count the big bag of stuff i said i was saving.......whew.

okay, i am snapping out of it.

any how - he is going to be 1 which means i have been post preggy for a YEAR and I still haven't lost any weight. sigh. i know everyone tells me to not harp on it....but it is driving me bananas. i tell you i still feel like the skinny girl i used to be - only a mere 2 years ago....but then i look in the mirror or run out of breath carrying shnookums and the world back and forth when we are out running around etc....and i am reminded----the skinny ME is on vaca. double sigh.
ummmmm hummmmm.....before preggy.....yep - i heard you sigh too. now you know what i am saying? one day i keep telling myself.......ONE DAY........hopefully SOON. i am giving myself to Christmas to get back to a single digit size clothing. at least lose 40lbs....even 30lbs i would feel much better.

okay enough about weight - - back to my babe. :o)

yes, he is becoming such a little man. and to think while i was pregnant i was always trying to imagine becoming a mother and what he would like, and how would it be when i first met him.....well first meeting him was BLISS and totally indescribable. i have said it a 1000 times - i never knew a love like this existed. no matter what kind of day i have - when i see him - it makes me smile and happy and i just want to kiss him all over and make sure he is happy and LOVED.
this was me falling in love. just about to pop - i had to take some pics of my beautiful growing belly with my wonderful blessing growing inside. i can actually say - even with all the "issues" i had while preggy - it was one of the best times of my life - ever! the other time? giving birth to shnookums and holding him and loving him intimately for the very first time.

and here we are......here he is......about to turn 1 years old. he will be an actual number now....not just a week or a month. :o) how exciting - and yet EMOTIONAL. my birthday wish for him is this.....I pray he knows he is LOVED, GODLY, that he is HAPPY, STRONG, HEALTHY, INTELLIGENT, SWEET, RESPECTFUL, SUCCESSFUL, THAT HE CAN DO ANYTHING HE PUTS HIS MIND TO, SAFE, COMFORTABLE, INFINITE BLESSINGS, and just HAPPY.....HAPPY.....HAPPY.....HAPPY.....HAPPY.....etc. and i pray that AB takes NOTICE of him and stops holding grudges, that is heart opens and he finds the love this little boy deserves.

XOXOXOXO PEACE FORWARD ALL!! XOXOXOXO