my little big boy (picture show)

my little big boy

i just can not believe how much he has changed since his first birthday that was only just a month ago! unbelievable! he is an absolute delight to have around, to observe and most of all to LOVE. he is so beautiful.....in fact i think everyday he is more beautiful than the last. he makes me light up, he makes my parents light up, he makes the room light up, in fact i think he makes the whole PLANET light up......yes, i am a very proud proud mommy....if you couldn't tell.

life is so beautiful now, even the clutter and snug-ness of our teeny tiny apartment (and i mean teeny tiny - knock down the walls and it would be a very small (less than 500 square feet) studio) the scattered toys all over, the goldfish and puffies i find constantly in varias places around the floors, the constant "no no's" that are part of my daily vocabulary now, the sometimes sleepless nights when my mr shnookie doodles doesnt feel well and can't sleep, the stress from finances, the non existent social life i used to be so busy with......i wouldn't change any of it for the world.....nothing compares to having this blessing, this GIFT that God has graced me with.....

he is walking now, started doing it positively SOLO last Wednesday (uncle pickle juices 29th birthday actually - talk about great minds....) and he is so darn CUTE....deliciously CUTE....ridiculously CUTE....he walks like a little old drunken man....wobbly and all. everyday he is becoming more and more confident in his travels and i am cheering him on! i tell you i fall in love with him more and more everyday - even more than the day he was born - if that is even possible.....God must think something really wonderful of me to BLESS me with this incredible child, i have to pinch myself every day and make sure im not dreaming....i mean this yummy little boy calls ME (yes, can you even believe it....ME)........MOMMY.

amen & then some yanno........wow.

don't call me no mo' - don't text me no mo'

♪♪ don't call me no mo' - don't text me no mo' ♪♪

"cuz i'm through whicha - cuz i'm through whica"

are they kidding? LOL

if this is the NEW song - then please someone hand over a pen and a piece of paper QUICKLY and let me jot down a little DITTY for you!!!!

toooooooooooooooooooooooo funny (or maybe sad?) LOL

rambles

rambles

here is my shnookums, he is now 1 and i just can not believe how the time flies. this picture was on his first birthday a few weeks ago - after the cake- waiting patiently for mommy to clean him up. he is just SO beautiful. i love everything about him, i can't even pick just one thing.....it is just not possible. everyday he changes, i catch myself just sitting and watching him for hours - and he doesn't even know what i am doing. he is amazing to me - he is like a sponge and is learning something every minute of every day. i had no idea it was possible to love someone THIS much - no matter how cranky he gets (which is rare for him) no matter how many times he pulls my hair or yanks my earrings out (ha) - i can't even remember much of my life before i had him - i mean i can - but it seems so long ago now- and i wonder- why had i not had him sooner? boy was i missing out! :o) he was so much fun at his birthday, half the time not even knowing what was going on and other times very intrigued by what was going on....

my gf said looking at her daughter everyday was like the very first day the doctor put her daughter in her arms for the very first time.....and i can so relate to what she was saying.....

every morning is like Christmas with shnookums, awaking to see the new surprises of the day- and enjoying every minute i have with him....i truly cherish him and our time together. when i get off work i can't seem to go pick him up at daycare fast enough, i miss him SOOOO much throughout the day.

i thank God everyday all day for this wonderful child he graciously blessed me with.....there is truly nothing BETTER in this world than being his MOMMY.

enjoy some birthday pics.....

my baby is ONE today!

my baby is ONE today!

wow.....i feel so emotional today, ha. he is 1.....he is a whole year old now (technically he will be a whole year at 10:07 PM tonight) i woke him up this morning singing Happy Birthday - he was so cute he was just smiling and laughing at me. i was watching him sleep last night, he looks like a little person.....not my teeny tiny newborn baby.....and after all this time, he still looks peaceful and happy, so innocent.....i pray he will always be so happy and peaceful and that if he has to lose that innocence (which of course he will) that is happens gracefully. :o)

i got him a little cake and a little present for tonight - just me and him. :o) and i got a big ONE candle to put on the cake. i am going to leave or my lunch break here soon and go get him some of those teeny tiny cupcakes for school and a couple balloons. i know he really doesn't know what is going on.....but I do! :o)

i decided he and I will have a birthday tradition. at 10:07 PM on his birthday he will always get a special gift. :o) as he gets older, it will be the one BIG item that he REALLY wants for his birthday :o) tonight it will just be my little gift to him. :o)
and i have a sneaky suspicion that he will have two birthdays anyway - ha. one with Mommy and the other with Grammy and Papa and family. i mean how exciting - several days of presents is always nice!

we are having his actual birthday PARTY this Saturday and Grammy & Papa's house - so much fun. i really hope the turn out is nice - lots of pictures to put in his baby book and time capsule i am making for him.

as i sit here......i just can not believe a whole year has gone by with this little dude.....i am just amazed at how much he has grown, how much he has changed, and how much he has learned and is still learning.....mommyhood has been so wonderful so far....i constantly look forward to what is next with shnookums....

just 4 more days

just 4 more days

omg! shnookums is going to be a YEAR OLD in 4 days!! i seriously can not believe it.

i spent the past two evenings going through his clothes for the 5th time. i have already given away two humongous bags of his clothes that i could actually part with and not get all emotional about, well kinda....sort of. (yes people, giving away his teeny tiny clothes makes me sad....lol)

as of last night i had 2 more great big bags of clothes that he can no longer wear - i swear i could have my own little baby boy's clothing store with what this little dude had stored away in my closets (yes closets is plural). not to mention all my little teeny tiny pairs of teeny tiny shoes....sigh. and this doesn't even count the big bag of stuff i said i was saving.......whew.

okay, i am snapping out of it.

any how - he is going to be 1 which means i have been post preggy for a YEAR and I still haven't lost any weight. sigh. i know everyone tells me to not harp on it....but it is driving me bananas. i tell you i still feel like the skinny girl i used to be - only a mere 2 years ago....but then i look in the mirror or run out of breath carrying shnookums and the world back and forth when we are out running around etc....and i am reminded----the skinny ME is on vaca. double sigh.
ummmmm hummmmm.....before preggy.....yep - i heard you sigh too. now you know what i am saying? one day i keep telling myself.......ONE DAY........hopefully SOON. i am giving myself to Christmas to get back to a single digit size clothing. at least lose 40lbs....even 30lbs i would feel much better.

okay enough about weight - - back to my babe. :o)

yes, he is becoming such a little man. and to think while i was pregnant i was always trying to imagine becoming a mother and what he would like, and how would it be when i first met him.....well first meeting him was BLISS and totally indescribable. i have said it a 1000 times - i never knew a love like this existed. no matter what kind of day i have - when i see him - it makes me smile and happy and i just want to kiss him all over and make sure he is happy and LOVED.
this was me falling in love. just about to pop - i had to take some pics of my beautiful growing belly with my wonderful blessing growing inside. i can actually say - even with all the "issues" i had while preggy - it was one of the best times of my life - ever! the other time? giving birth to shnookums and holding him and loving him intimately for the very first time.

and here we are......here he is......about to turn 1 years old. he will be an actual number now....not just a week or a month. :o) how exciting - and yet EMOTIONAL. my birthday wish for him is this.....I pray he knows he is LOVED, GODLY, that he is HAPPY, STRONG, HEALTHY, INTELLIGENT, SWEET, RESPECTFUL, SUCCESSFUL, THAT HE CAN DO ANYTHING HE PUTS HIS MIND TO, SAFE, COMFORTABLE, INFINITE BLESSINGS, and just HAPPY.....HAPPY.....HAPPY.....HAPPY.....HAPPY.....etc. and i pray that AB takes NOTICE of him and stops holding grudges, that is heart opens and he finds the love this little boy deserves.

XOXOXOXO PEACE FORWARD ALL!! XOXOXOXO

i can't believe it

i can't believe it

i know it has been a good minute (or two) since i have posted anything on my lovely blog here - so much for trying to do it weekly (ugh) ever since i moved into this new department at work i haven't had a moment to breath much less write in a blog (smile) but i love that it has been keeping me super busy - makes the day go by sooooo much faster - as where as before it DRAGGED. and you can forget about trying to blog once i get home with shnookums at the end of the day - mr. busy body just won't have any of that. it is all about him, which frankly i have no problem with at all. he is growing way way too fast - i can't believe it- he will be ONE people.....ONE in 13 days!!!!!! i swear to you i was pregnant a WHOLE LOT LONGER than it has taken him to reach his ONE YEAR celebration - seriously.

he is crawling up a storm (and pretty darn fast i might add) he pulls himself up on anything he possible can (my leg, couch, chairs, toys, tables, doorways, toilet seat) and i promise you i have seen that little rascle stand up solo in the middle of the room too with this 'you just wait mommy mischevious grin' and then sit back down with this thoughtful look like 'oh yea, i am almost there - watch out world- here i come!' - - - - - - i am so not kidding. he talks a mile a minute too, babbling jarbled baby talk, but non the less - he is def a chatterbox and whatever he is saying i am sure it is pretty darn serious because he looks at mommy straight in the face and waits for me to respond with this serious look like 'you know what i am say n' mommy' - too funny.

he has become this teeny tiny little person right before my eyes, he is a HAPPY little boy and has sooooo much personality already, i think i have even seen a little bit of a TUDE (ha) wonder who he gets that from (eh HEM....) and he is now very particular about things - people-food-toys-bedtime (lol) waving bye bye- waving hello, clapping, dancing, singing, playing peek-a-boo, smiling at mommy when she says no-no and doing it anyway (something tells me the no-no thing is just the beginning of a lifelong thing - ha), posing for the camera (again no idea where he gets that stuff from...lol).....yet it seems like just yesterday i was anticipating his arrival and then welcoming him into my arms last September 10th for the very first time ever........now look......13 more days and he will be ONE!

we are having a wonderful little gathering for him September 15th - and i know they say the first birthday is more for the parents, and they are probably right (smile) but I am so excited about it, and shnookums is so observant that i already just know he is going to love it! he loves attention anyway (again no idea who he gets that from) wink. i am planning a time capsule for his first birthday - something full of wonderful memories from the people in his life right now as he turns a CELEBRATED BLESSED ONE YEAR OLD - so he can look back at it when he gets older and enjoy (mommy too).

and i am also celebrating being a MOMMY for a year....it has been an absolute collaboration of emotions and pure BLISS and JOY - it has had it's unsure moments with certain sicknesses etc....and daycare stuff....but it has been the time of my life, i would have never imagined this kind of love before i had shnookums - and for that i am truly BLESSED and GRATEFUL.

God just ROCKS! ;o)

well i am back to work, but i am going to try to do better at updating my blog.....TRY. (wink)

peace forward ~ infinite blessings!

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

so busy

so busy

I feel like one day here I will get back to blogging…..sigh and I started out so well too.
my goal was once a week and there for a minute I was actually blogging a couple times a week. it has been some time since my last blog – I started a new department once my manager came back from vaca – and this new department is no joke – busy busy and very detailed – a lot more little things to do than what I was doing before.
I have new pics of shnookums and pics from pickle juice’s visit – so I will get on that super soon….I hope my fellow blog readers have not forgotten me….I promise to start doing better with my blogging. I can say I have had a lot of emotions running through me lately – pertaining to shnookums (of course), my family, finances, work and God has been a very big part of it all…..I have had so much material bouncing around in my head for my poetry and no time to jot it all down….such a waste……well I know this wasn’t much – just a taste of me today – but more work has piled on top of the work I already had waiting on me…..

Peace Forward and Much Love…..Infinite Blessings!!!! xoxoxoxoxoxxo